Dear Dariano,
I am in a very dark place right now with no one to talk to, I am unsure what I want to do.  I really just need someone to talk to.  I'm not sure what has triggered me this time, but I have been feeling this way yesterday and today and I'm almost at a point that I don't want continue with the pain.  I do have a therapist, she is in Hawaii on vacation, I do have friends, they don't understand.  Yesterday I took my Xanax and went to sleep, but the depression and nervousness did not go away.  I just sit and cry, feel very useless, and want to hurt myself.  I am a cutter, but I'm just not sure that enough today.
Sincerely,
DarkPlace

Dear DarkPlace,
Suicide is not the answer, it is a permant fix to a temporary situation.  Many people find themselves in dark places from time to time, including myself.  What you need to do is find someone to talk to that will listen and not try to give you advice, just shut up and listen to what you have to say.  I think also you need to stop cutting yourself, all you are doing is masking your emotional pain with physical pain, and that is not healthy, you are just causing two types of scars for you to deal with in the future.  

This may sound strange but find something that can distract you, a hobby or something that you love to do.  Whether it is taking walks (excersize is great to help with depression, the blood flow helps you lift your spirits), painting, getting lost in a great book or have a movie-thon.   Those are some ideas, do what it is that you prefer, not exactly those if they dont sound appealing to you. 

Please put up the knife, put up the Xanex, and get some help. Visit http://suicidehotlines.com/, this website has suicide hotlines for everystate, also there are two national hotlines that you might want to call 1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433) or 1-800-273-TALK (8255).  They are trained professionals that are there to talk and listen to you, and they understand how you feel, and wont treat you like you are crazy. 

Just so you know you are not alone in your thoughts of suicide, many people have those thoughts, and I wont give statistics on the rates of suicide because they are skewed, many are not reported as suicides when they are, due to shame to the family or it was an accident that was meant to be suicide but just did not appear that way.  Regardless you are not alone and there are people out there that want to help, so please call them and let them do so.  You are worth more alive than not, and the people that love you would miss you deeply and their pain would be great if you passed, so please call someone if you start getting worse and cant seem to distract yourself with the suggestions above,

With great sincerety,
Dariano